As I sit in my solitary confinement
in this long cold night assignment,
I face the north unsure if true
with the voiding darkness in the vast big blue.
I take my watch feel so lone each night,
oh how I long to reach those city lights-
where the harbour’s calling and you’re waiting tight
for my return like hundreds on a turtle flight.
We made our vows to keep us up,
we exchanged our ballads often enough.
I longed for you each passing time
with hopeful dreams for our love divine.
There was New York and a bit of Paris.
There was a ring and a long-planned marriage.
Oh how sweet and tender everything appeared,
I was deeply moved by the love you give.
But distance kept us afar for most,
and time had set us to different roads-
for as the will of surprise I descend to you,
the same welcomed me and you broke us two.
Yes our love’s uneasy with their eyes unsure,
indeed it was a secret fortified by truth.
The truth that you love me and I love you too,
faltered into nothing, less than something sure.
All the lights now flicker, I cannot see home.
Those shore lights I longed must have gone much long-
for the once warm arms I’ve assured my Rome,
had tarnished into steel I cannot return.
I did my best but you’ve tired too soon.
You’ve gave us up in instant and you stand it through.
Yet you dare to tell me you still care a friendship-
All the pain you brought me with my burning dreams…
Sorry I can’t…
Forgive me I won’t…
I can’t exist with you if not loving you.